explanation.

am i an emotional guy? jus by lookin at the tears rollin down mE states it obviously.
impulsive and irritable, very, but controllin. when all things fall onto you and leave you speechless.
'go slow'? i don't think i got a choice. have to wait for somethin to happen.
nobody understand? yes and yes. in work especially, goin back to work while on leave. it's my fault for not completin the booklet, but was i told when? and i wasn't the last to complete it even. no one do simply appreciate that I AM SIMPLY ON LEAVE! cleared everythin last night and realise i am kinda quite free like a bird who doesn't owe anyone a livin. my boss especially, who is a 'dinosaur' who jus simply think things are right in place and nothin except the staff are wrong. with her position, definately everythin could be done. but i am jus another small fry gotten push around. or doesn't she even understand not everythin in the organisation is correct and right in place since donkey years ago. WAKE UP! in office, it jus seems that i owe everyone a livin. goin an extra mile doesn't help. back at home, parents are rather not well educated and with technology nowadays, they jus can't seems to catch up. goin slow is one thing, makin them learn is another. friends jus simply seems too far, and i am like far too busy for them which i reckon i kinda true. jugglin seems to be outta hand. relationship can't rush. somehow, i seems to be standin there like a sittin duck waitin to be shot.
who else know what am i goin through? self inflict stress eh? ha.
really really beyond my control now. sigh. escapin to hong kong tomorrow.

Colorgenics

You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

Being impulsive and irritable, your desires and needs are paramount. You do things with insufficient thought - with little regard to the consequences that may follow. As a consequence of this attitude, you may be experiencing stress and conflict.

The way things are at this time it is necessary to 'go slow'. All the pleasures that you have anticipated should be left in abeyance until some future date, but all is not lost, you are able to derive and achieve considerable gratification from someone quite close to you.

Nobody seems to understand you at this moment for everything you suggest or do seems to be taken up the wrong way. All of this misunderstanding is leading to anxiety and stress. The situation naturally is not as you would like it to be - you feel that you are being treated most unfairly and that trust, affection and understanding are being withheld from you and that you are being treated with a demeaning lack of consideration. You consider yourself being denied the appreciation essential to your well being and self-esteem and that there is nothing you can do about it. You feel that whatever you try to do to change the situation, you are getting nowhere fast. You would really like to get away from it all but can't find the energy or the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.

The tensions and stresses that you have experienced of late have been the result of trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond your capabilities. You feel completely inadequate to cope with the situation and you would like nothing better to escape from it all and to be able to relax in a problem and pressure free environment where you can do your thing.

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/

http://www.doolwind.com/index.php?page=11

Your programmer personality type is:

DLSB

You're a Doer.
You are very quick at getting tasks done. You believe the outcome is the most important part of a task and the faster you can reach that outcome the better. After all, time is money.


You like coding at a Low level.
You're from the old school of programming and believe that you should have an intimate relationship with the computer. You don't mind juggling registers around and spending hours getting a 5% performance increase in an algorithm.


You work best in a Solo situation.
The best way to program is by yourself. There's no communication problems, you know every part of the code allowing you to write the best programs possible.


You are a liBeral programmer.
Programming is a complex task and you should use white space and comments as freely as possible to help simplify the task. We're not writing on paper anymore so we can take up as much room as we need.

How to make mE

How to make a Jim

Ingredients: 1 part friendliness 3 parts crazyiness 3 parts beauty

Method: Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Top it off with a sprinkle of lovability and enjoy!

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Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

i am weak.

my soul have been weak today.
totally let KD took over.
can't even have a day of break. i won't be able to take it anymore.
sorry.
nothin will take you away from mE anymore.
nothin will jeopardise the relationship anymore.
your beloved JD. =)

restarted once more.

things got worst last monday. very bad to the extent that the whole world falls on you.
things got negotiable last tuesday. quite alright that things got slightly better.
things got stationary last wednesday. nothin happened then.
things got extreme last thursday. unexpected and nothin in return in office.
things got restarted last friday. practical the whole day was fun at home.
things got positive last saturday. went for movie the sliver surfer and a great deal of fun at kovan.
things got normally fine last sunday or i mean yesterday. went for father's day lunch and was fun in the afternoon at lavender and not forgettin the shoppin and queuin and carryin of plastic bags containin durian products.
last but not least, i love you not for who you, but because it's you.
no matter what happen to you, i will be there for you, to take care of you, to look after you and to love you throughout my whole life time. muck. =)

done.

things're back to normal and even better. but i don't really've time for myself le. i reckon that's good coz it means that things're better and nicer than before. quite sweet bah, honeymoon again? ha. didn't really've time for friends too, but i reckon they won't mind de. hehe... btw, work has been tie mE down for the past months, for now, i can relax much more till end of the month.
jus came back from chinatown, went to pay for my oversea trip. SGD$1344. lookin forward very much for it to come. gonna go do my stuff le.

these days're not the same.

made lotsa changes and made lotsa commitment these days. kinda tired but enjoyin. work ain't that bad nowadays, but work load kept pilin and am too busy sometime for personal life. sigh.
went to I T Fair last week, got myself a RAM for my laptop and a cool Divoom 2:1 Speaker. i think i missed the crowd. ha. the speaker seems cool, used it only once due lack of time. sigh. soon i'm gonna blast it. wanna get some chinese songs but find it hard to get. i am addicted to TT, my PSP with Monster Hunter UMD and iPod playin the Forbidden City Soundtracks. gonna get some rest before headin to work tomorrow.