3rd and 4th

my 3rd birthday present from KD is a stay at Shangri La Rasa Sentosa Resort. had lotsa fun. it's fabulous and sweet. the view was great facin the sea. then a dinner at Azabu Sabo at Marina Square and a free movie of 'stardust' there. the movie was a surprise and unexpected, i was totally taken aback when we walked past it and he went to the counter collectin the tickets.

my 4th birthday present from KD is a dinner at Gyu Ka-Ku Japanese BBQ Restaurant at Chijmes. wow! simply delicious and wonderful meal. it's one of the most expensive meal, $170 that i ever had, but it's worth it. then a movie of "mr woodcock" at vivocity quite a nice show.

i was visited

was supposed to sleep till i closed my eyes and suddenly i think the muse visited mE. i got a fair bit of toughness and sadness and rejection and low in my life that i believe it could be penned down and shared to people around who will find it beneficent. nevertheless, bits and pieces have to be first piece up to make a full picture. it will come, i am sure. KD and muse will be behind mE.
for now, i reckon i should get some rest before playin my part as a nice boyfriend.

2nd

my 2nd birthday present from KD is orange color, 28 litres grand deuter. simply lovely.

BBQ

thank you my precious KD who i swore never to give up.
KD organised a small little gatherin at the BBQ pit beside my house, invitin a couple of friends. after a while, two of my close friend shockingly made their appearance. i was surprisingly stunned and speechless. never have i give the thought that the two will come, they are busy people, very busy friends that i know. one is a air steward, the other have two jobs to juggle and a relationship on the rocks. their appearance really brighten my day very much.
received present from alvin and jimmy, patrick and finally jerald. thank you very much guys. simply like it very much.
zihao and gerald gave mE present too. it's durin our little KBox time at marina square, where zihao presented the cake after a little "toilet" break and not forgettin the little pig. thank you very very much. it's very sweet of them.
KD made all these plans alone, in the midst of the busy schedule, hasty done as my schedule is not fixed. this is one birthday i enjoyed the most and there is certain no second thought about it.

1st

my 1st birthday present from KD is a love shaped, chocolate cake with white chocolate on top and nut at the last layer. simply fantastic.

BF

BF stands for Birthday Foreword last week.
BF is somethin that KD put in a lot of effort in doin it. i gladly and proudly accepted and recognised that very sweet present presented to mE every night last week. it's some little trick KD did on my computer and every night without fail, KD would saw it with mE physically there or over the phone. it simply makes mE feel that i'm so privilege to have KD woh.
thank you KD! muck!

politic

work have been pretty well these days, though more work but more happy and it's more recognised. jus some people in the office ain't that helpful and there's some politics revolvin one person. btw, it's still work. ha.

finally

deletin things of the past, deletin memory of the unhappy past, erasin picture of someone you held important and valuable could be somethin that never occur to ones' mind. however, holdin on to it can be worse, can be torturin, this is especially when there is too many happy memories to contain and think back and ruminate. this is hurtful when you accidentally browse through it. however, i finally decided it won't happen again. slowly bit by bit, i started to delete it off. and today is one of the day that i deleted a lot off.
suddenly, i felt more relaxed, no longer holdin a chain of unhappy history, but memories still stays.

it's back

felt funny. the feelin that i felt half a year ago was back. the nostalgic feel, the feel when everythin was sweet and pure. i guess that time was the best time in our relationship, but it's back. this is the motivation that i got nowadays, to pull back the relationship that once fallen and now it's a whole piece again. of course i would like to thank my KD for the help and support that was given when everythin went blank, the trust that KD gave is unmeasurable. KD is probably the best, the sweetest i can ever have.
i simply love my KD.

hope

i hope everythin would be fine from 13th october onwards.
have been arguin a lot since two weeks ago. jus gotten too much stress and is bothered over too many stuff i reckon. KD have been sufferin since then, now, we're back on track and hope it still this way.

direction

where is this relationship steer to?
i recently got some direction problem. i am lost, so the relationship is headin a little aimlessly then. KD tried to take control, it did worked, should KD keep the relationship runnin? hmm.

my bad

been my fault and i am doin lotsa harm to my precious KD these days.
puttin KD in a fix, makin KD rush and grounded are so so common these days to the extend the word sorry been very common too. i at times was put at cross junction, unknowing of the paths that lies ahead, all path got it's danger and damage. no path without any damage and danger lyin, felt stressed, helpless, lost and useless. i tried unaccommodatin but this relationship requires a lot more than bah. too much at time that i am unable to provide there and then. somehow it makes mE looks terrible and guilty and wanna do stupid stuff. KD isn't ready bah, i shan't force KD and push KD to any more of the limit. shall take things slowly.
sorry isn't jus a word, it's a heart pain that i suffer from.

stress.

i am very stress!
i am not superman, i am not a millionaire, i am not a full time workaholic.
i am jus mE, jus a human.