i am lost!
my future is quite bleak. nothin is confirm, have to take one step at a time. can't jump, can't run. sigh! mind is very occupied, temper is short, tolerance dropped, work is not turning out what's supposed to be. a lotsa things turned out not in favor of mE.
anyway, i think i must really apologise to KD who have been bearin with my nonsense and stupid behaviour these days. thank you and sorry KD!
today is the eleventh month anniversary.
pretty happy about it. had a few different celebration since sunday.
had four different kinda cake on sunday. went for a fish and co dinner on monday. had a movie, "Golden Compass" premiere yesterday. today? no idea yet. hmm... ha.
gave KD three presents. all comes with a lotsa meanin. hope KD enjoy and it.
was quite uneasy yesterday. had some unpleasant recollection of events that once happened to my good friend some time ago. breakin up and gettin new one seems so clique, but it's somethin that friends around mE been through. on top of that, the reason of breakin always seems so ridiculous like 'i got no feelin for you anymore' or it's jus simply that someone cuter is after them. well... i don't know when it's gonna happen to mE. i jus really don't know when or will it ever. i voiced this little concern i had to KD and KD shared his piece with mE. KD felt that too. relationship at some stages are vulnerable and unstable. this calls for some holdin on and have to bear it and get over with. it might be a while or months dependin on how the issue is bein resolve.
in a relationship, most of us need things known as 'anchor' for us to look forward to. once this anchor point is lost or taken over, there is a need for another new anchor point. anchor point can be one year anniversary, marriage, gettin a child or whatsoever. it's jus have keep goin. it's jus like some goals to achieve in the relationship. the tighter you hold on to the anchor point, the harder you will work and fight towards it. also it's harder for one to let go. when relationship runs outta energy, i think this is somethin that keep couple goin. anchor point might takes time to reach, but it must be realistic enough.
eh... i think KD have given a great sense of assurance to mE. i reckon i can't think of reason for us to part. hmmm... how many more decades are we gonna last? thank you KD for bein with mE.
things made a turn? i don't know, i felt it. KD felt that? hope so.
well... at work, listenin to my boss talked and bloggin. apparently, once she starts, she can't stop, usually that's. anyway, met KD for dinner jus now. think it's quite a good dinner jus that i have to be back at work and KD have work to do and work tomorrow. well... really hope that KD enjoy and like dinner tonight.
i really made the effort, not because i want to, it's because i love KD. =)
went to watch enchanted with KD this very night at amk hub. after the show, saw a bloody fight goin on outside the ktv. sigh.
relationship facin a problem le. i am willin to solve it.
rip this off from jerald's blog. ha.
KD, see this said that scorpio and virgo is a match!
Lets101 - Online Dating
what is unreasonable?
to mE, perhaps it's jus an excuse to avoid or not to do somethin out of your comfort zone. think, to mE, comin up an interestin essay in an hour might be unreasonable, but to a RJC student, it's nothin.
well... finishin a plate of chicken rice in a minutes might be unreasonable and impractical, but i guess i'm not referrin to that. i am referrin to like doin things that is possible, but it's not somethin you like or out of your comfort zone.
what do you think?
too much things to do, but too little time.
spent a great deal of time with KD and at work. the 'Low Disk Space' warnin have been appearin for sometime and i simply got not much time to deal with it. sigh.
i was posted to this question from KD, do i still wanna carry on workin at my current job after my contract ends?
i jus thought about it and think, 'NO'. it've been very time consumin. the passion inside have long died off after the amount of energy i put in and obtain no recognition and instead, reprimand. well... the job i am in requires personal transport, over time, passion, simply jus follow instruction, don't do addition and avoid unnecessary arrow.
this kinda job is fun? nice? wanna stay? i don't know.
