less fever.

suddenly thought of this phase, "more haste, more haste". ring any bell to those romeo and juliet lover? jus came back. tired and sick. goin 'oversea' tomorrow. really hope i get better tomorrow. so far think got about nine people who ask to "drink more water" after seein my msn nick as "fever." fever subsided, but still in pain.
watched this very saddenin show, "flags of our father" this afternoon while waitin to eat medicine. the plot is got this very human touch and i like the conclusion very much. it goes somethin like this, "no one is a hero, hero is made up coz everyone need a hero". then i began to ask this question, "is doctor to save life?" doubt so. i guess the real objective of doctor is to give HOPE. if the doctor doesn't save life or can't save someone life does it means that he's not a doctor?
very broke now. bein nice doesn't always've good return. anyway, i have been havin this phobia lately about goin oversea, coz whenever i go oversea i tend to lose somethin or someone very precious. sigh. lovely lovely mE gonna be sad sad again! nothin is forever, but i hope things will be there as along as it can.
anyway, think this sunday need to go kbox with hao and kev bah. never go last sunday. hmm... provided i'm feelin better that is. also, how come people nowadays so chim and goes blog with some much depth. ha.

fever

was runnin a terrible fever. was 38.7 this mornin and dropped to 38.4 in the afternoon at t t s h. reached home at about six plus. the wait at the a&e was horrible, didn't bring the psp, ipod and such at all which added very much to the mental stress other than my father nag and unreasonable behaviour. gotten some medicine for fever, cough and flu and a medical certificate statin that i should not report till first of may. the horrible thing is not about bein sick, it's about goin to pulau tekong tomorrow for some trainin. for those young boy and gentleman, it's any stranger. ha. don't wanna sabotage anyone so i reckon i better go bah, takin into consideration that i will receive naggin from people who cares. at least, there's people who cares. anyway, really don't like people to wait for nothin especially there is paper tomorrow. anyway, my boss got into t t s h on thursday for dengue fever, i did a blood test and prove free from it. ha. guess shan't ponder so much. hittin the sack now.

stays...

gonna have my brunch soon. i guess i worked toward a fine piece of picture too much that i neglect the finer detail and the human touch. well... on my part, it is basically i am a stupid and idiotic impatient freak where jus keep rushin things. true enough life is short, i might jus leave tomorrow, who knows. apparently, if i really did neglect anyone or anythin along the way, i sincerely apologise. that's the one and only word i can say right now. but the most important is nothin gonna change, everythin is here to stay.

wee... i am really gonna save up very very very very much to get myself the DSLR, do i really need it? don't think so, but i really jus want it badly. jus like how i wanted someone badly too. do i have keep sayin mucks and i love you when you know i seriously do?

poppin down to the dvd shop to look for dvd later. wee... keep wantin some shows but don't really've the time to go and shop for it. btw, gonna meet ryan and gang on the fifth this month, lookin very much towards it.

today, or i mean yesterday since it's past midnight was not so much a hectic day. everythin was, well, in 'good' control except the thunderstorm that ran past the area when the last detail fired the last shot. on a lighter note, at least everythin went smooth and fine and not so cock, total of four blinds for your info. waited for the bomb specialist to arrive to clear the unexploded warhead. the wait was pretty unbearable especially with the cool and smoothin air, dozed off at the granite bench a couple of time before the medical orderly wakes mE up shoutin, "sir, they're here." alright, finally was the word, after a great hour of wait. other than dozin off, another thing came into my mind, love. it's a word that you can search in the dictionary, but how oneself interpret it is so so different. had a great talk with my another half then, only to realise that i'm jus a fool who is polluted and so caught with the society. i need to stop and stand there for a while and listen to the voices inside mE. i love someone badly. too badly in fact that i am lost and don't know how to move. can someone bring mE to safety?

anyway, i'm on off tomorrow. yawns. think i'm gonna visit my dearest hao hao, who is admittin to a hospital for some minor operation. i have made up my mind and really really I AM DETERMINE! i want and need and badly requires a Nikon DSLR before national day. that's a dream and a wish. mucks.

cool.

1. I love you not because of who you are, but
because of who I am when I am with you.

2. No man is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way
you want him to, it doesn't mean he doesn't love
you with all he has.

4. The worst way to miss someone is to be
sitting right beside him knowing you can't have
him.

5. Don't waste your time on a man who
isn't willing to waste their time on you.

6. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people
before meeting the right one, so that when we
finally meet the person, we will know how to be
grateful.


What I find important in a relationship :
4Cs
CHEMISTRY,
COMMUNICATION,
COMPATIBILITY,
CONTRIBUTION.

long.

a long long long week.
didn't get through it pleasantly. had some unpleasant scene, but still bear through it. been in bad debt with my mobile phone bills. sigh. got cut before the day before.