busy.

was busy, i mean very busy lately. commitment in work and with friends totally drained mE. sigh. watched 200 pounds beauty last night. wonderful show. gonna buy the dvd.
today was a tirin day. very tired. sigh. don't wish to type now. yawns.

yawns.

sittin in a internet shop, think it's called chills cafe somewhere around city hall. mahjong session yesterday was fun and stressed. won too much i guess. jus jokin. had been lucky so i won a little. walked around from clarke quay and took a few beautiful scene, shall post it up soon. work have been horrible. or in fact terrible. my guys lost somethin very important again. how come it's always them. can't stand it, almost bursted into flames, but my patience is good or in fact very good. sigh. am i bein too nice to them? think i'm really busy these days bah. really realised that when kevin actually prompt mE that my weekdays are sorta taken and left with weekends. furthurmore, weekends are like busy to the max and hardly got time for myself. but i reckon, it's Ok. especially this period of busy time. yup. it'll soon be over after june.

with love?

havin some slight problem with life. kinda lost and really the word is lost. direction-less. don't know what do next. hmm... got some plans, but don't really have the discipline to put it into action and execute it. kept pushin things to somethin known as tomorrow. hmm... i believe it's sometimes good to be lost at times, at least, you can revisit what you really want.
talkin about want. i learned somethin really useful today. it's the three beliefs in life: the love, the need, the want. this is especially if you're a workin adult. when you're workin, have you thought of why the hell am i workin? because i need to work to keep livin and not jus existin, takin free oxygen? because i jus wanna work coz everyone says i have to? or because i LOVE to work what i am workin? perhaps most of us falls into the first one, because you need to. need to support the family, need to buy this and that, need to eat. but what if you love your job and have ultimate passion in it, will it makes a difference? will you smile and work beyond your limits? i guess so. hmm... life is not simply jus about survivin, it's also about lovin yourself and the things you do. well... don't jus let time and decades pass without fall in love with anythin.
btw, i found my PSP. my colleague "kept" it for mE coz i misplaced it on my table.
can jus ONE person buy mE a good and nice thick christian bible for collection? i lost track of when i last flipped one. i don't wanna receive three or four of it coz i jus need one for data collection and pleasure readin. so jus one is enough. thanks.

tired week

had a pretty tired week. stressed in fact. i don't like to do anythin bad to my subordinate, but i did this week. think that they hate mE a lot. ha. anyway, LOST MY PSP! hate it. simply hate the feelin.
sometimes, it's about doin the right things and doin the things right without the right way. everythin need to be done usin the right approach, but who actually determine what is the right approach? if you think a little harder, it's the social norm which determine it. it's kinda like a long story to it. look, if you don't help a granny cross the road so you're wrong? eatin human meat is wrong? actually, says who? my mother said my grandmother said it, then who told my grandmother? ha. anyway, had some nice lunch and taken neo print with kevin this afternoon. kinda cute! hao hao's grandmother pass away and he refuse my visit. so sad. the most saddenin part is that one of my subordinate got 14days restricted privileges all thanks to mE. sigh.

pictures taken today:

it's may

the lovely month of may came so unexpectedly. i didn't know it's may day aka labour day after i alighted the cab and realised that the ferry timin for the holiday was kinda weird. i crossed the sea with a twenty odd kilo trash bag containin my neccessity which made my sickness even worse. reached the site only to realise that one of the guy was sick and i was made to send him to the nearest doctor in mainland so took the noon time ferry back again. while so, i thought somethin from my dream is about to happen which indeed happened after all. i demanded, i like to demand a lot. don't know why, perhaps because i care too much about it. this is my way of carin. i do care for myself too, and much more in fact. gonna fall sick again.
anyway, i won't be able to go out this weekend already. got some activities goin on. sigh. need to postpone again? simply hate it.