formula drift

wee... went formula drift this afternoon with KD. quite fun and nice. bought a nice shirt too... wee...

btw, won a nice cd last week, quite nice de. KD collected for mE. nice nice...

go if you want

there have been a string of things that happened for the past few days, these things jus reminds mE of the past, the very sad past, the history that should never even have happen. regrettably, it did, mostly out of foolishness, stupidity or whatever bad things you might cross your mind. furthermore, i am jus dumb, stupid, idiot and all.
the things now were no longer the same, i am 'unlove', unwanted and confuse. confuse why am i still holdin on to when detachin from mE seems good for everyone. no matter how much i love, i long to be, i never thought of lettin go, the fact still remains everythin is jus different now. doin everythin seems to be more of obligation and not anythin else.
i must admit that i am a bad, stupid and selfish person. its about time i did somethin right and stop forcin things to go my way reluctantly. all i wanna say now is go if you want, i got absolutely no rights to stop. i mean it. =)

past

time past and some past have been history.
somethin that i've been neglectin have became history. i am no longer the person that you seems to know.
this evenin had a usual quarterly dinner with the gang. pretty glad that everyone is able to make it, in this case, KD joined us. i'm glad that KD did. the chat was a thing that i somehow been lookin forward to coz it's a real good group of friends chat. everyone of us came from very very different backgrounds and of different age group but apparently jus somehow our path were once crossed about five years and opportunity came and we were kinda good friends till this very day. anyway, it seems that my change in personality and dressin and all are kinda drastic and obvious which caught their attention. true enough, i was no longer the mE a year ago. jus barely one year, i made changes. a teacher once told mE this, "a leopard never change its spot". this statement is the only childhood statement that i remember. i never remember how i been through my primary and secondary school, never really the process and the lesson. all i could remember was the people that been crossed my path and pulled mE up from pit hole, but i never seem to keep contact since then.
well... enough of history. watched this musical play yesterday titled, 'we will rock you'. it about some rock musical with several all time favorite from the Queen. i am one that never know anythin about english music till the end of my secondary school education. it kinda a eye opener for mE though. ha. like it pretty much.
the past, the history.

so...

so i've done so much, is it worth it?
so will the end still be the same?
so what if process is beautiful, end is ugly?
so should i still do anymore?
so what if i don't do so much?