i made KD sad this mornin after a clubbin trip. i am terribly sinful and hate myself so much for makin KD feel so sad. i will make up. i promise.
today was another busy monday. on top of that, i was kinda sleep deprive so my runnin and sneezin nose return this very mornin and lasted even now. caught simpson and a play last week. was very surprised that KD bought the tickets and i hid my joy and excitement in mE. too happy then. i really enjoy myself with KD a lot.
we quarreled last night again. about somethin trivia i guess. but it's the things that KD did to show how little KD have in mE, in us, in the relationship. don't wanna talk about the sad part.
went over to KD place last night, played the PS2 and talked to the sister and stayed over. was late for the course today. the course was pretty nice and had a wonderful lecturer who shares a lot. i learned this statement: "in a relationship, it's the small things that matter" quite true. ha.
Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession
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KD scared mE a bit that day over breakfast. i remember i did use pore pack on KD before, but KD denied that i did. i somehow figured out that it could a dream that i had, but gettin confused over dreams and reality ain't really that bad eh? either of them're things or i mean memories that residues in your memories, so to mE, it's jus somethin that i remembered but not sure whether fact or dreams. sigh. is that really that bad?
went over to KD's house for a while where i am supposed to take a look at the hammy which i apparently forget to. sigh. lookin forward to see them back. that's before noon, then headed to a nearby hawker centre for lunchie, five dollars and ninety cents for chicky rice and two twenty for sugar cane drinks. next was the highlight where we took bus to parkway parade and alighted to take a four dollars twenty cents cab to the other side of the east coast near bedok jetty to kayak. spent twenty dollars on kayak and some fun capsizin each other boat, not forgettin the part where we laid there to receive the welcomin sea breeze. with wet bodies and wet clothes on, we went to the hawker centre nearby 
for coconuts, two coconuts costs four dollars. walked and walked and got onto bus to parkway parade to engrave our rings. the terrible engravin cost nine dollars, gonna get it fixed some other day. never the less the twenty two dollar forty five cents dinner of bak gu teh at the food court then two sofa cushion at twenty two twenty four and a new light khaki shorts of two three dollars and ten cents. then the thirty dollars thingy and cab of about ten dollars home.
noticed how much i have spent in jus a day? sigh. i'm tryin to control my spendin already. sigh. really really really controllin. but afterall, i really enjoyed my day badly, terribly, horribly cool and fantastic. most importantly, we didn't argue to quarrel at all, but jus had wholesome fun. muahahaha... lovingly sweet day!
good game i mean. had a good game with KD this very evenin after dinner at clementi, went home and played.
jus gotten my pay slip. gotten quite a reasonable sum. sufficient to get a DSLR, but should i? wanted it badly then, but KD don't like the idea of mE spendin money and i got the feelin it's kinda very expensive. i don't usually buy stuff more than a thousand. it's a very tough decision. hmm... any comments?
happy, that was how i feel tonight. other than the japanese buffet dinner and the walk around raffles place. KD gave in. i am very happy. i appreciate that KD actually did it for mE. ha. i was also happy when KD hold my hand in the restaurant, the way KD tried to touch my hand and hold it. i was so delighted over it. the dinner was fantastic with it. muahaha...
i am supposed to start work today but somehow there is nothin much for mE to do so i'm like goin back work tomorrow early early.
gonna be very busy with work already. won't be very free much already, but i will make effort to meet my KD.
like i said i went to hong kong last week and today, i went down town and got two sapphire hamster. they are jus so cute. then went to suntec to have dinner with my parents, the dinner costs eighty plus and my mother went to carrefour for groceries. btw i paid for the dinner. ha. this is the second last restaurant meal i am havin for this month.
somethin jus dropped into my mind and i was think about it for a while, and took out all the receipt i have accumulated for the past weeks. it looked kinda a lot when i took them all out at one shot. ha. i kept some the receipt for several reasons and they made mE smiled jus now. =)
let mE do a small breakdown of the receipt and the smiles i had.
| two adult entry to disney's land | 119.81 | |
| watch fireworks at the the sleepin beauty castle in disney's land with KD | 0.00 | |
| caramel pop corn in disney's land | 3.00 | |
| seein KD choosin the the pop corn with lotsa caramel | 0.00 | |
| ingredients for makin salad | 26.50 | |
| makin a three layer salad for KD | 0.00 | |
| two cups of ben & jerry ice cream - cookie dough and cherry garcia | 5.50 | |
| seein KD got scared by the ghost show while eatin cherry garcia | 0.00 | |
| two tubs of haagen das ice cream - green tea and tiramisu | 21.40 | |
| seein how KD like the green tea so how | 0.00 | |
| three packets of face masks durin GSS | 9.45 | |
| usin the face masks with KD | 0.00 | |
| one box of shiseido pore pack | 4.50 | |
| puttin one pore pack on KD's nose and laughin | 0.00 | |
| two movie tickets to transformer | 12.32 | |
| holdin KD's hand while watchin transformer | 0.00 | |
| one lovers pop corn combo | 5.50 | |
| feedin KD pop corn | 0.00 | |
| one crystal jade mango cake | 15.40 | |
| get KD to take the candle out of the cake usin mouth | 0.00 | |
| two sapphire hamsters with pet food and shavin | 41.60 | |
| lettin the two hamsters jump around and falls onto my hands | 0.00 | |
| havin KD to love mE | priceless |
KD mentioned that i said 'sorry' too much already. does KD know that i don't say 'sorry' very sincerely to people? i don't often hang that word on my mouth, even if it came out of my mouth do take notice of how sincere i am in sayin or jus sayin for the sake of it. i guess KD is different so i guess i jus unknowingly said too often and too sincerely.
yesterday looked different, the way KD kissed mE, the way KD hugged mE, the way KD held my hand and most of all, the way KD looked into my eyes and talked to mE. everythin were jus so different. i felt much much better, much assure of what is gonna happened. felt that KD ain't gonna leave mE, felt that KD love mE a lot.
is this a fantasy or jus how i felt? am i seein the real or somethin made up? but at least, i felt better, much better now.
yesterday is the triple seven. new start once more. i hope and i wish.
btw if you don't realise today is Seventh of July in the year 2007. triple seven. jackpot. the seven seven seven reminds mE of the show slevin. muahaha...
felt that this blog now is so so so green. cannot cannot. gonna do some modification already... muahaha...
i somehow felt inferior, felt useless, felt good for nothin in front of my beloved.
no matter what, i wish you by my side, happy anniversary.
i jus took out the box of strawberries from the refrigerator. ate three and for once, these strawberries are jus so sweet. and i jus cried so badly.
when you're deeply in love, everythin you do for the person and everythin you take or eat is jus sweet. i guess, finally, i am truly and deeply in love. one love that i will cherish and remember. prayin every mornin and workin hard each day not to lose it today, but it's jus hard when your beloved is god and you're jus another one person on the street when no one bother to take a second look at. felt so unworthy. felt so hurt. felt how my beloved was hurt for the past four months.
i promise not to let my darlin get hurt anymore, to take good care of, to shower with hundred and one percent of time and effort and love, but does it help? my fragile little darlin was hurt, hurt too badly.
darlin, i really love you.
hong kong trip was no doubt cool and fun and excitin and amazin especially you go with someone you feel real comfortable with. nothin to rush for as it's a very free and very easy trip, though we've planned somethin out from the trip. some places to go. i will post some pictures tomorrow bah. i guess this is one trip i enjoyed myself to the max. can't beat any england or states one. haha...
a news came after i arrived home. the occupant of the room next door moved out. cool right? i mean after all i move in there today. in the room now there is still boxes accumulatin there waitin for some maria to pack it. ha.
btw jus gotta my 200 bucks for the GST increase. COOL sia. free money. and i am gonna get new computer soon. muahaha... interestin.
gotta go for now. gonna pack up some stuff.
