jus watched this very delicious, sweet and nice show titled "P.S. I love you"
very very very nice, full of meanin, learned a couple of lesson from it.
the show is highly recommended to couple out there or single who split up.
anyway, i received my kiss from the love of my life. =)
| Well Wishes | When Adding Condiments |
| 恭喜发财 | Placing the set on the table |
| 大吉大利 | Lime juice to the ingredients |
| 年年有余 | Placing the abalone on the ingredients |
| 一本万利 | Sprinkling pepper & five-spice powder sachets |
| 油水多多 | Pouring oil & sauce over |
| 金银满屋 | Sprinkling chopped peanuts |
| 生意兴隆 | Sprinkling the sesame |
| 满地黄金 | Golden crackers |
took leave on friday, 2nd may so that i can have a long holiday from 1st may till today. in view of that, KD and i went for a short getaway trip to nearby genting for three days. the trip was fun, but yet not as enjoyable and relax than the one to bintan. anyway, i did like it a lot. somehow, i felt that KD and i have not been thinkin on the same frequency recently, which i believe that it's the stress that KD have been receivin. i have given KD a great amount of stress too. pretty guilty and felt kinda bad over it, but i am jus worried. well... what will come will eventually come. plans are still not destroy yet, jus shelved for a while and once the appropriate time comes, we shall see fruits.
wee... went formula drift this afternoon with KD. quite fun and nice. bought a nice shirt too... wee...
btw, won a nice cd last week, quite nice de. KD collected for mE. nice nice...
there have been a string of things that happened for the past few days, these things jus reminds mE of the past, the very sad past, the history that should never even have happen. regrettably, it did, mostly out of foolishness, stupidity or whatever bad things you might cross your mind. furthermore, i am jus dumb, stupid, idiot and all.
the things now were no longer the same, i am 'unlove', unwanted and confuse. confuse why am i still holdin on to when detachin from mE seems good for everyone. no matter how much i love, i long to be, i never thought of lettin go, the fact still remains everythin is jus different now. doin everythin seems to be more of obligation and not anythin else.
i must admit that i am a bad, stupid and selfish person. its about time i did somethin right and stop forcin things to go my way reluctantly. all i wanna say now is go if you want, i got absolutely no rights to stop. i mean it. =)
time past and some past have been history.
somethin that i've been neglectin have became history. i am no longer the person that you seems to know.
this evenin had a usual quarterly dinner with the gang. pretty glad that everyone is able to make it, in this case, KD joined us. i'm glad that KD did. the chat was a thing that i somehow been lookin forward to coz it's a real good group of friends chat. everyone of us came from very very different backgrounds and of different age group but apparently jus somehow our path were once crossed about five years and opportunity came and we were kinda good friends till this very day. anyway, it seems that my change in personality and dressin and all are kinda drastic and obvious which caught their attention. true enough, i was no longer the mE a year ago. jus barely one year, i made changes. a teacher once told mE this, "a leopard never change its spot". this statement is the only childhood statement that i remember. i never remember how i been through my primary and secondary school, never really the process and the lesson. all i could remember was the people that been crossed my path and pulled mE up from pit hole, but i never seem to keep contact since then.
well... enough of history. watched this musical play yesterday titled, 'we will rock you'. it about some rock musical with several all time favorite from the Queen. i am one that never know anythin about english music till the end of my secondary school education. it kinda a eye opener for mE though. ha. like it pretty much.
the past, the history.
so i've done so much, is it worth it?
so will the end still be the same?
so what if process is beautiful, end is ugly?
so should i still do anymore?
so what if i don't do so much?
well... it's been sometime since KD stepped out of gettin educated and have stepped into educatin profession. i really mean profession. afterall, pay ain't that bad for someone fresh except the unstated long hours in hours and hectic last minute arrow shot at you. i ain't really complainin much, jus that i know my time ain't manage well enough and felt neglectin KD's feelin and welfare quite a fair bit. in addition, with the some external commitment that KD took up was more than sufficient get drown with workload.
one thing i really learned: work is never-endin. jus clear whatever work take precedence and is important is good enough. no one is gonna see what time you leave workplace, but lots other are lookin at what time you arrive.
KD is a very smart guy and too goody a person. however, in that case, if not well protected. it might be taken advantage and knows no limit. best is to be workin in a place with jobs well defined and shelter under the umbrella of good welfare. can't really be placed in the society where it's so evil, realistic and more realistic. realistic here is on the negative side. whatever it might be, i jus hope KD gain enough to pull through to the next lap with lots more obstacle.
jus bearin in mind that, avoidin can be a solution, in which mostly undesirable and inefficient. it's jus like maths, jus requires the correct formula to work.
