explanation.

am i an emotional guy? jus by lookin at the tears rollin down mE states it obviously.
impulsive and irritable, very, but controllin. when all things fall onto you and leave you speechless.
'go slow'? i don't think i got a choice. have to wait for somethin to happen.
nobody understand? yes and yes. in work especially, goin back to work while on leave. it's my fault for not completin the booklet, but was i told when? and i wasn't the last to complete it even. no one do simply appreciate that I AM SIMPLY ON LEAVE! cleared everythin last night and realise i am kinda quite free like a bird who doesn't owe anyone a livin. my boss especially, who is a 'dinosaur' who jus simply think things are right in place and nothin except the staff are wrong. with her position, definately everythin could be done. but i am jus another small fry gotten push around. or doesn't she even understand not everythin in the organisation is correct and right in place since donkey years ago. WAKE UP! in office, it jus seems that i owe everyone a livin. goin an extra mile doesn't help. back at home, parents are rather not well educated and with technology nowadays, they jus can't seems to catch up. goin slow is one thing, makin them learn is another. friends jus simply seems too far, and i am like far too busy for them which i reckon i kinda true. jugglin seems to be outta hand. relationship can't rush. somehow, i seems to be standin there like a sittin duck waitin to be shot.
who else know what am i goin through? self inflict stress eh? ha.
really really beyond my control now. sigh. escapin to hong kong tomorrow.