bad day

KD WENT TO MALAYSIA WITH SCHOOL TODAY!
i am damn sad and miss KD bloody much and i am such a bloody, terrible, horrible and uncalled for person. i didn't realise my phone was off when KD have to make a lot of effort climbin up the mountain in order to gain good reception to give mE a call for us to hear and talk to each other. i am such a bad person for the start and i am kinda feelin real bad and jus wanna drop everythin right and think of good ways to torture myself for missin that important call. i am really terribly bad. i really don't know what to do but jus really say sorry. i have really done a lot of bad things to KD these days and really got nothin to say and do except to express my most sincere apology and get a reply that my "sorry is getting worthless".
i am really a bad boyfriend or i shouldn't even be one in the first place? =(