breakfast?

thoughts went wild, crazy, randomise, unacceptable and eventually empty.
an empty breakfast fills the mornin. was too upset to sleep properly last night. phone was jus next to mE and the time goes tickin away quietly while i waited for KD's sms for breakfast which i half told myself, it's fruitless waitin. i knew the result from the start, it's a foregone conclusion. well... to many, it's jus a breakfast no big deal about it. somehow, to mE, it's not jus a breakfast, it's a lover's breakfast for the two of us, spent time together, enjoy each other company, create a stronger bond, feed each other food and have fun.
it's till recent months that i enjoyed KD company a lot. KD been entertainin, talkative, supportive, selfless, encouragin, nice and all, but it's jus today, jus today, the irritatin thought that 'i am not really that special after all' came back to mE. the 'i am not really that special after all' feelin first strucked mE at lido when KD picked up the rollin-far-away-and-away-and-away and hard-to-get-out coin for a fat woman, i mean plump. it's a matter of treatin everyone includin your precious one the same. well... other than what-you-do-in-the-room, if everythin else is treated similar, it ain't really a relationship, right? you nicely bring food for others or make some hassle to get somethin for jus a friend, how about that? well... it's jus simply shows that 'i am not really that special after all'.
back to the point, i guessed for now the balance is between bein a nice and filial person or a full-time lover. this balance scale was hard for mE too, i got reprimanded for 'not respectin the elders', 'where's your chinese traditional value' and 'you are totally horrible'. that's when i put more weight for the relationship. i somehow felt that my rebellious attitude got up to my parent's nerves and can't use work as an excuse to miss anymore family dinner, but still i go out with my love one, regardless what. i was quite dishearten by the mere fact that we barely have time together, need to squeeze time and make time. weekend is no longer our. i was wonderin for anniversary.
in about a month time, anniversary is to be celebrated. somehow, i guess KD can't make time. family and work takes precedence, if i don't force and demand today, i can gladly forget about the anniversary that KD will make time.
well... i hope my strokes on the paintin will be significant some day.

happenings!

some little updates.

211207 - i bought a D40, went to vivocity and ate at the Thai restaurant
221207 - stay over somewhere nice till 231207
231207 - check out
241207 - friend's BBQ
291207 - went for boss's birthday party
301207 - went for dinner at taka's seoul garden
311207 - went for countdown
011208 - i was slackin at home
160107 - reopenin of the market at central

Prima Deli is BACK!

well... despite of the incident of the poisoning which somehow was quite of a BIG NEWS! it is back, went down this evenin and though the crowd was not as what was before, but somehow business is still fine after all. honestly for mE, i do quite like the price and the cake and the waffle. when it was closed for investigation and inspection and such, i was pretty upset over it. nevertheless, it's BACK. weee...

anyway, for those non newspaper reader:

-tekka market is closing for renovation.
-runnin KILLS!

Army major dies after 1.2km run 41-year-old walks half the distance back, collapses while cooling down in camp

-oil price increase, so food and transportation price should be increasin in due time.
-malaysian health minister was caught havin sex with his mistress for more than an hour by a CCTV and he quitted.

yawns.
i think that's more than enough of Singapore news.

facefaceface BOOK!

argh... facebook is gettin on my nerves! after ignorin lotsa requests for hours, i still have 514 requests left! sigh!

2008!

well... 2008 is here and is here to stay for another 365 days that is.
KD and i have successfully progressed into 2008 with a little party at a club. really felt bad that i was drunk shortly after jus the third drink and had caused terrible and horrible experience for my dearest KD and imposed Klein too. well... it's quite a bad start after all even though KD claimed that KD wasn't unhappy, but i sensed some little bit of unhappiness.
anyway, my first resolution is
in order not to get drunk, i will from this very hour onwards, not drink more than a glass of alcohol within 24 hours!
i guess this is the first step to fulfill a satisfied and happy relationship for KD and i. like i promised KD last night, i will never leave KD and will not do anythin bad to KD. on this very light note, this very relationship will last much longer than anyone will expect. ha.
btw, Happy New Year!

lost v1.1

i am lost!
my future is quite bleak. nothin is confirm, have to take one step at a time. can't jump, can't run. sigh! mind is very occupied, temper is short, tolerance dropped, work is not turning out what's supposed to be. a lotsa things turned out not in favor of mE.
anyway, i think i must really apologise to KD who have been bearin with my nonsense and stupid behaviour these days. thank you and sorry KD!

week!

what an eventful week!
had plentiful of fun with KD!

11th

today is the eleventh month anniversary.
pretty happy about it. had a few different celebration since sunday.
had four different kinda cake on sunday. went for a fish and co dinner on monday. had a movie, "Golden Compass" premiere yesterday. today? no idea yet. hmm... ha.
gave KD three presents. all comes with a lotsa meanin. hope KD enjoy and it.

sense of assurance

was quite uneasy yesterday. had some unpleasant recollection of events that once happened to my good friend some time ago. breakin up and gettin new one seems so clique, but it's somethin that friends around mE been through. on top of that, the reason of breakin always seems so ridiculous like 'i got no feelin for you anymore' or it's jus simply that someone cuter is after them. well... i don't know when it's gonna happen to mE. i jus really don't know when or will it ever. i voiced this little concern i had to KD and KD shared his piece with mE. KD felt that too. relationship at some stages are vulnerable and unstable. this calls for some holdin on and have to bear it and get over with. it might be a while or months dependin on how the issue is bein resolve.
in a relationship, most of us need things known as 'anchor' for us to look forward to. once this anchor point is lost or taken over, there is a need for another new anchor point. anchor point can be one year anniversary, marriage, gettin a child or whatsoever. it's jus have keep goin. it's jus like some goals to achieve in the relationship. the tighter you hold on to the anchor point, the harder you will work and fight towards it. also it's harder for one to let go. when relationship runs outta energy, i think this is somethin that keep couple goin. anchor point might takes time to reach, but it must be realistic enough.
eh... i think KD have given a great sense of assurance to mE. i reckon i can't think of reason for us to part. hmmm... how many more decades are we gonna last? thank you KD for bein with mE.